Emotional and Abusive boyfriend

by Nayeli
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Well how can i start.... First of all i met my first boyfriend when i was 14; he was 14 too. We were in 8th grade....i used to have all my classes with him.

At first i didn't like him, but we became close friends. He would tell me that i was his best friend.. i started to like him but i didn't want to tell him cause i thought he was going to get mad n i was scared he wasn't going to talk to me. But one day i told my friend to tell him i liked him. He said this: "why does every girl i know like me?" When my friend told me this i was sad, but i said to my self forget about him. i thought he wasn't going to talk to me the same way. But when he got out of his in-school suspension, he went to our 7th period. He used to sit in the back of me.

When he got there, he started poking my back and he was asking me for paper. i was happy that he would talk to me the same way. It was like that for the first semester i had his # but i didn't want to text him. He was going to say "oh this girl. So i never did.

So we came out of Christmas vacation... and i just wanted to talk to him. But still i couldn't call him or text him, until one day i was talking to my best friend (JO). She said "let's call him in 3-way call, and when we started to talk, my friend had to hang up. So i stayed there talking to him...i was so happy:) But his friend used to like me, he was there with him, and then he would put his friend on. i really wanted his friend to leave. Then he left.

So from there we started to talk and text everyday... He would call me in the nights n we used to talk till 8 in the morning. We used to talk a lot. He was so nice.

Then one day we were talking normal and he asked me out. It was on December 27th. I said, so happy, YES. He was my 1st boyfriend. He was my 1st kiss. One day we planed to go to the movies. We went there and he gave me my 1st kiss. He was so nice, i really was starting to love him.

Everything changed when we were 5 months. The nice guy that i thought he was became the jealous controlling one. When i was 3 months with him, i gave him my V. He promised me he was going to be with me; that he wasn't going to leave me. But then he thought i was prego. i wasn't, but he thought i was because i was just throwing up that day. He told me if you are prego, i am going to be with you and take care of both of you.

i was like the happiest woman. But i wasn't prego. He was happy that i wasn't. Then after that, we did it again. Then like the 3rd time we did it, he thought i was prego again. By that time, he told me to abort if i was prego. i was like "noo i don't need you. He was like "ok". But i wasn't again. i got scared cause of what he told me and i didn't want to do anything with him. but he convinced me again.

i was so stupid. i would let him do whatever he wanted with me. Even though it was his fault, he would blame me. i would always tell him i am sorry when it wasn't even my fault. One time i just said i need to lose weight. He said "yes you do." i just said OK. i didn't get mad.

A couple of weeks passed. He would always check what i was eating. He would ask me and i used to tell him everything i was eating. He wouldn't let me eat anything. i had to ask permission and if he said no it was no cause if i would eat, he would get mad.

One day i didn't obey and he asked me "what did you eat?" i told him everything. i was laughing. i didn't know he was going to get that mad. He grabbed me by my neck and started to choke me. He was telling me "why, why did you eat if you promised you weren't going to eat?" i was like "i am sorry." i was taking his hands from my neck cause i couldn't breathe. He grabbed my hand and started to twist it. It hurt a lot. i started to cry. i broke up with him. i told him "i don't want to be with you cause you are hurting me, and one day you are going to hit me. He said "Noo please. i am sorry." i went back with him.


My mom came to pick me up from his house. i was all quiet. She said "What's wrong?" i said nothing. i didn't want to tell her that he choked me cause i know she wasn't going to take me to his house again. So i didn't tell her.. the other days where OK i didn't want to fight with him, that's why i wouldn't eat......

i was with him 1 year ,7 months. He would always promise me he was going to change. But they were lies. He never changed.He would control me and he would say he was the man. He would tell me that i was fat, that i had to lose weight. i would always cry and i used to tell him "Then go look for a skinny girl." He would say "i love you. i just want you to lose a little." His words hurt me... but i didn't say anything.

When he thought i was prego again, he was a crazy man. He would always think i was prego. i used to tell him no but he would say yes and nobody could talk him out of that. That time i went to his house, he was telling me "what are we going to do if you are prego?" i would tell him "well i am going to have it. It is not the baby's fault for our actions." But i already knew i wasn't prego. But when he said yes it was yes so he was like "if u love me, you are going to abort. i would say "noo i love you a lot, but i ain't going to abort." When i use to say no, he would be like OK. But then he would hit me in my stomach. Ann i was like "Why are you hitting me?" He would say "so u would lose the baby." And i would start crying.

He would always tell me he was sorry. He told me sorry so many times and i believed him. i couldn't talk to guys but he was always talking to girls. We didn't go on the same bus but he was always checking on me. He would ask me "who did you sit with?" when i was with a girl. He was just "I was just checking."

When i used to sit with guys, he was like "Why where you sitting with him?" i had to explain everything. When we where watching movies and a guy without a shirt would come out, he would cover my eyes so i couldn't see him. It was stupid but he did that.

He did a lot of things to me. i would cry everyday for him cause when he was with me, he wasn't happy. But the days that i couldn't go to his house because i was sick or i had really bad cramps, he was like "You better come." If i wouldn't, he would get mad. i would cry cause i was sick. But i still had to go to his house. It's not like i didn't want to go. But i was sick. He couldn't even understand that. There's still more, but if i keep on telling you guys then i am never going to finish.

After 1 yr 7mo, i left him. In April i went into a true depression. i had bulimia; i lost a lot of weight. i thought my world was going to fall down. But it didn't.

There is help, girls. Get help; don't stay with a guy like that cause they could kill you. i know is hard to leave them but you can. i am happy i left him.

i have 11 months without a bf, but i don't like him anymore. i am just taking my time, like my counselor said :) Now i am 16 and i feel more mature. Now i know what to do when another guy comes into my life.

Thank you for reading this