Forced In.

by Marie

I was dating this guy who was the COMPLETE opposite of me, who I date, what I stand for. But he was sweet.

He was 14 at the time and I'm 15. He was in the Latin Kings which I hate with all of my heart because it ruined a couple of my family members. So when he told me that I wanted to RUN, but I didn't. So I'm best friends with his cousin before I met him and I am also close with his best friend who gave him my number.

I started to lose feelings for him because I noticed things I really disliked. I told him this in the "general sense" and he said "Baby I can change that, I can change that for you." I told him no matter what you change, you will always be yourself and I didn't want him to change. I do NOT force change on anyone because I myself HATE when people try to control and change who I am. So why would I do that to him.

I had stayed with him for about a month and some change, and I was afraid that if I left him, his sister, his and mine close friend, and his cousin my best friend would judge me because he's such a nice guy and they don't want to see him hurt; with NO regards to my feelings about anything in the relationship.

His sister isn't small either. I weigh 110 and it varies due to a weight problem I have always had (not anorexia or anything,) and she probably weighs about a good 200-something. He had told me what she had done to a girl before, plus she is very OVER-protective of her little brother.

The day he and I were talking about "him changing", his sister had called me earlier to ask if I was serious with him, do I really like him, am I gonna hurt him and all this. I took it as an omen because I really wasn't feeling him anymore.

I tried dating again when I broke up with my ex because I was going through a very stressful time and I didn't want to lash out on him. So I told him this. And then I saw him and my heart skipped a beat. So many things were going through my head and I missed him so much. I never stopped thinking about him. I love him.

So me and the 14 yr old were talking later that day, and I broke up with him. He replied with, "Oh you were trying to change me and that's so selfish." I never said anything about him changing. I'd much rather be friends with him after we broke up, then have him change for me and be fake.

So now I'm back with my ex, who I love, and we've been the happiest. He felt the same way and when he saw me. He thought the same things as me.

The second times a charm ;)