He's abusive but I can't leave him or let him go....
by caitlin
In the third month is when he started the physical abuse. Me and my sister were tickling him cause he was upset from a joke she had said and so i was trying to make him laugh. I guess it is my fault cause he was telling me to stop. I was tickling and spanking his butt and then he stood up ripped his shirt off like the hulk and chased me to my sisters room. I thought he was playing at first so I was laughing and jumped on her bed. He jumped on it then too and started twisting my arms and holding me down and then banged my head against the wall twice and he just walked away. I was totally shocked and just took a shower. When I got out he was saying "sorry" and forgive him and it's my fault cause I didn't stop. So I just forgot it cause he said he'd never hurt me like that again. Since then I've had over 30 or 40 bruises from kicks and punches. He punched me in my kidney 3 weeks ago which still hurts. I currently have a burn on my chest where he has burned me with a lighter(he said he did it because I was playing with it and he wanted to teach me a lesson.) He counts to five to tell him something or do something for him. He made me have sex with him today twice, the first time he started counting to five so I had to. And he just does things to hurt me emotionally and physically. But I don't not want to let him go. I don't want to lose him. Before I met him, I was suspended from school every other week. When I was there, I was skipping or getting yelled at by teachers. I ran away. I did drugs and drank alcohol almost every night. I ended up in the hospital from drinking with this guy, and they told me I was raped and dropped off somewhere, and a whole bunch of other stuff. He knows everything about me and my past. He's my only friend, the only person I can tell stuff to. Well, I used to. I can't anymore cause I'm scared. I begged him not to leave me just this morning because he found out about me drinking while we were going out. Cause when we first started going out, he made me stop being bad. So he saved my life basically. And if I lose him I know I'll go back to that. But if I stay with him I'll just keep getting hurt. Either way I'll be hurt. There's no way out for me. There's a lot more to my story but you get the gist of everything. Well, there's my story. I hope somebody has comments for me to help me. Thank you :) |
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