NOT sure if i did the right thing????

by Tashkain
(Worthington MN)

Hello,

When i was 18, i moved out and moved to Wllmar, MN for college. I was there for about 6 months before I meet my boyfriend. We did everything. It was great.

Then after being together for 6 months, we found out that i was having a baby. I finished school and wanted to come home for awhile. Yes i cried the day i left because i did not want to leave him in Willmar when i was going to be 2 and a half hours away, all the way in Worthington MN.

Well, i started to hang out with someone of my old friends. After awhile, i started to realize my ex was wanting to be with me. I thought "What could this hurt if i'm just friends with him".

Then the next thing i know i'm saying "i love u" and wanting to be with him and everything. Well, my boyfriend then decided "okay. i'm done waiting for her to move back to Willmar." That i will move down there to be with him.

I was trying to get away from him because i was not allowed to talk to anyone, go anywhere but to school. After all that happened with my friends, he told him i'm not allowed to hang out with them or talk to them. I was like okay, I really don't need them. I have a baby on the way.

Well things got better for awhile after that. i went into labor 2 month early, not knowing i was in labor. It sucked, but of course he was at work. That was the only time i could go out and see my friend or do anything.

So when he got home at 8am, we went to the Dr. and they told us i was going to have to have the baby today. They could not do anything to stop it because i was really sick. So i said okay that fine with me, whatever would make my baby better and me.

Well, after she born and i got to bring her home, after a month he told me he did not want her or anything. He said "I got you pregnant because u said u wanted to baby."

So i couldn't use his phone and i broke down. I did not know what else to do. He got in his car and left. i did not know where he went or anything. He came back a couple hours later and said "We are over. I don't want you no more." I started to cry because i did not want my baby growing up without her dad around.


So he got his place a couple of months after all that happened. I started to stay with him, thinking it was a good idea at the time. Then he started getting really mad all the time because we started to fight about every little thing.

Then one day we are driving to see his mom and everything. He said "You make me so mad, i wanna kill myself or you sometimes." So i said "Fine. Then we are done and i'm going home with my mom." He said "You're not." Then after awhile he was just fine. I was like "What the heck is going on with him?"

After my daughter was 7, i thought "Hey, why don't i get a job so i wont be sitting around the house no more." I have been working there for about 2 months and he wants me to quit because he can't handle watching his daughter for a couple for hours. Well, i work. So i thought i will find someone else to watch her and pay them 70 for watching her 2 weeks, and he told me no.

Then one day, he got on to my facebook, and i had said something to one of my exs so i could open up a little more to him. And he dumped me and called me a whore and he dropped his daughter off with me at work.

We are still together, just not living together. i live with my mom, and he is moving back in with his mom. I'm telling you guys: if you are reading this, get out when you can because you don't want to be with someone like this. It is hard and it's stressful, but if you ever need to talk to someone, you can e-mail me at babyishot3@hotmail.com

I will also try to help.