Stuck.
My husband and I have been together for 6 years and married for 5. I should have known that he was going to be abusive in one way or another. Now he has never hit me but has thrown things at me many times. If I didn't have quick reflexes, I would have been hit a few times though. When he does not get his way is the times he is the worst. If he wants to buy something and I say can you wait til payday, he will go off. I get called names, told that I am worthless, and he should have never married me. Then he will just be angry the rest of the day. Silent treatment to me. Calling his whole family and putting me down. So just to get some peace in the household, I will go buy what he wanted. Then he is happy and nice to me again. I know I shouldn't give in but I just don't like the yelling. I know if I don't stop it now, it will get worse. On many occasions he has said that he wanted to slap me or hit me. And he says he only gets mad because of what I do, blah blah blah. It is the usual abuser excuses. Things that I studied in college. I love him will all my heart but I do not love him enough to die because of him. And that may never happen. But I need to stop things before they get to that point. I honestly do not think there is a way to fix my marriage. In reality, with all the love I have for him, I don't know if I even want to.
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