He doesn't get it
He doesn't get it. I been telling him since he laid his hands on our daughter and I got in his face. He said he didn't push her hard, however she had bruises. We went to 4 sessions of therapy and he even sees we shouldn't be together, keeps talking about how him and I live in the same house but do everything separate.
I told him today I didn't want to marry him, I just did it because he told me if I didn't, it was over and he was going to take our daughter away from me because I had nothing.
I want to be happy and with him around I am miserable. To the point where I am thinking of cutting myself to see how the pain feels, maybe to take away the emotional pain. I pick at my fingers until they bleed.
I want a happy life. I can't leave, where am I going to go with 3 dogs and 2 kids. I wish I could run away with the kids but I don't want to go to jail.