Husband into shemales and bdsm

by Isa
(Singapore)

Hello Everyone,

I am here cause there is no one i can talk or discuss this with.

I got married last year to an old time college friend. We used to meet once a year on my birthday and no contact for the rest of the year. Last year He proposed me and i said Yes, and soon after we got married. Remember we were always in long distance relation, till this year start, though i used to go visit him for two weeks in like two months.

After 2 months of marriage i got to know through his emails, phone contacts and whatsapp messages that he is cheating on me with Mistresses or Princesses whatever. i confronted him and he apologized and all of that. But it never stopped. Till now, we have completed almost 2 yrs of being in a relationship and still here and there i find these numbers or chats of his on his phone and also not to forget bank debits.

Now the thing is i know he is into bdsm and shemales. I have asked if he is gay (he had history in Grindr too) I tried everything i could to make him satisfied that ways. But it dint help. We have not had sex in past 8 months. Sex was great between us for starting of the relationship which was two months. I don't know if this is anywhere related to his addiction or its me. We have talked many times about his addiction and my needs. He tells he is trying..tells me he was in this thing from past 7 years so it is taking time for him to get out of it.

He says he wants to be again back to normal as he used to be and this is just a phase of his life which he is trying to get out of. i don't know what to do. I love him very much and undoubtedly he also loves me. I don't know if he would ever be able to commit or be honest with me. I feel like i am just losing everything while fighting for this relationship.

Please help me figure this out.