I Feel So Betrayed

by Kali
(Auckland, NZ)

My partner of ten years has become best buddies with my ex-partner, the father of my two adult children. He has even employed him. And i have also discovered that he has purchased him a car (the car purchase had been kept secret from me). And worse, that they talk about me and discuss the private and personal conversations between my current partner and myself, a fact i know to be true as one conversation was repeated back to me word for word by my daughter.

My current partner now lies to me and says he is popping out to do something, when in actual fact he is meeting up with my ex or taking him out fishing on our boat. There are many calls (spoken in code) between them also.

What really hurts me is that my current partner knows the terrible things my ex did to me when we were together over 14 years(had affairs, visited prostitutes regularly,lied constantly, would go to the shop and not come home for days, told everybody i was mad, etc) as he was there to help me pick up the pieces when we split. It took me a long time to recover from that relationship. I even attempted suicide.

I had no idea that i was being cheated on. I honestly believed everything he told me, my whole world as i knew it or thought i knew it was nothing but a dirty fat lie. I had spent 14 years of my life believing my life was something that it never was. I lost trust in everybody, even my own family. I hated myself for being so stupid and for being so trusting,loyal and honest. It was a dark place that i can say now i have recovered from, until now.

I worked hard to rebuild my life separate from my ex. But now i am forced to have him in my life again, and now spend 95% of my time alone as my current and my ex enjoy their lives together.

Mrs K