Marriage without trust

by Gracie
(Chesapeake, VA, USA)

So me and my husband are married for almost 5 years now. Few months ago I “cheated” on him for flirting and talking with a guy, but the guy and I never had sex, we just really hang out and talk almost every day.

One day my husband found out, he got mad at me, which is understandable because I know what I did was wrong. We talked and I explained to him why I did that, he said he loves me and he will give me a second chance and he’s willing to forget everything.

Lately every time that we’re fighting he keeps on opening up about that and he doesn’t want me to go out by myself anymore, he doesn’t even want me to out with my friends the only time that I can go out by myself is when i’m going to work.

I feel so sad and isolated, I regretted that I cheated on him but do I really deserve this? I do still love him but should I still stay in this marriage without trust? Because I know this is not healthy anymore. He also does things that I hate, he’s really pushing me to get mad at him. He gets mad when I get mad him. He will also get upset if I don’t want to have sex with him.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. Any advice?